The nature of the beast

The only thing I ever have wanted.. Is to have someone to love and adore.. And to be loved and adorded by them..someone I can hold into every word as if it was the most valuable thing on the planet and sacred.. Someone that won’t be afraid to hold my hand and show the world we are together… Someone who cares how I feel and will comfort me when I need and I can do the same for them… I guess it’s to high a standard.. Maybe..maybe not….. I think I have finally found someone who meets that standard and goes beyond…

so today.. today I think I finally worked out the biggest of the issues in my life… I am worried that this calm won’t last but I am going to enjoy this.. I pray that this sticks… if not then idk what I am going to do.. but I will push through … these next few days will determine… everything.. so for now I am going to be happy and live!! and love!!!

To love someone so much that you would lie cheat steal murder or commit other acts against your better judgement and your character .. and most importantly your heart is love without limit.. contrary to popular belief this is not a good thing.. because love without limit is love without meaning.. and can love without meaning really be considered love at all? love is so powerful and uncharted.. they say that true love hurts.. that is a lie.. love should never bring pain.. it should heal he pain..

I had forgot what love was.. I was loving without limit and now it is difficult to put a limit on it without hurting the one you loved in the first place… blah .. what to do what to do..

so today I was thinking… what if I had a time machine… what would I do with it? would I rewrite my life or just choose to relive the best times… or would I use it to see the future.. or simply let it sit and collect dust.. I believe everything happpens for a reason… I may not like that reason .. but there is a reason behind everything that comes to be.. and nothing is to great to be dealt with.. at the time it may suck major, but when you look back months later.. was it really that bad?